Do you remember who you were before the world told you all that you were not? If not, don’t distress. A lot of us are remembering and sharing what we’ve recalled. The Truth lives in our bones and DNA and cannot be destroyed. It’s all unraveling now. The Great Unraveling sounds like a beautiful term for this ancient unfurling Truth, don’t you think? It’s been a while since I opened up the blog, so I thought I would share what I’ve been remembering lately.

For starters, I’ve remembered that the Divine Power of Something Greater Than Me created me, and is therefore a part of me. The Divine is within me. And you. The Creator and the Created cannot be separated. It’s impossible. We are eternally connected. Eternally One. The remembering of this Divine Spark within has caused said spark to grow and evolve and shine light on ever more joy, knowledge, love and peace. There is so much power in remembering this Divine Spark that flickers at the very heart of us all. The early churches did their best to snuff it out, but the Divine cannot be snuffed out. Ever. Find what fans your Divine Flame and make that your mission here. This world needs hearts on fire. Now is the time. Fuck fear and delay. We need your light now.

Another thing I’ve remembered is that I am beautiful just the way I am. I’ve spent so much of this life focused on my soul’s meat suit. I’ve been brainwashed since birth to acknowledge and accept how deeply flawed and in need of constant help and repair my body is. It’s complete insanity. We are constantly told what is beautiful and what is not and when we hear something enough, we start to believe it. The deconditioning of my negative self-perception has been slow going, but it’s happening.  I feel more comfortable in my own skin. I find myself accepting what I see in the mirror, and I look in the mirror a bit less these days. The mirror used to be the place where I would spend way too much time looking for imperfections, but now I find myself stealing quick glances and then turning away before the claws of insecurity and self-loathing can take hold. Your insecurity and self-hatred make people billions. Take back some of your power (and money) and remember how incredibly beautiful you are. You are a cosmic masterpiece. A work of art like no other. You are a walking canvas designed by the Divine. You are a star shining bright. See your Light and then share it with us all. Remembering your inherent beauty and feeling it with every miraculous cell of your body actually makes you more beautiful in the eyes of those who behold you. You are beautiful! It’s time for you to acknowledge this long forgotten truth.

This year has also caused me to recall a not so happy, shiny truth which is that painful experiences can yield immense growth and grace. I’ve experienced a lot of dark shit this year and while my heart is still recovering from deep pain and sadness, I’ve come to see that there was a lot of significant lessons that came through the pain; lessons that my stubborn self chose to ignore or downplay until the once subtle issues became so loud, abrasive and painful that I had to pay attention. Things happen that make us take a long, hard look at ourselves. At first glance, we often want to shift the blame onto another, but we are the creators of our realities. If something is happening in our lives, we played a part in it– this is a simple, profound, yet often overlooked truth. Our job is to recognize our part and then make the changes necessary for things to get better. Sometimes we have to make decisions that break our heart wide open, but that is how growth goes. It hurts like hell at times. Expanding is not a painless process. It is not for the weak. Taking an honest look at who we are and what we’ve done is super difficult and uncomfortable. I’ve learned a shit ton about myself this year. I’ve seen where I’ve failed and have been lazy and self-centered and I want to make changes. I want to be better. I want to be a better human. I want to learn from the pain so that it doesn’t have to get worse, because the pain increases each time we choose to ignore the lesson that is trying so desperately to get through to us. Remember, this is Earth School. Your soul came here for a reason. It has some shit to learn, but it also has some amazing stuff to share. That’s a beautiful thing about this human incarnation:  we learn and grow and forever become more of ourselves and then we get to share the best of ourselves with the world. For me, 2019  was about looking my shadow in the face, and instead of falling into darkness, I chose to transmute that darkness into something beautiful. I am grateful for my pain this year. I am in awe of how much it has taught me. So when the shit hits the fan, which it will,  remember that something is trying to get your attention. Don’t ignore it or brush it under the rug again. That never works no matter how many times we do it. Face your pain and it can be healed. Face your pain and let more be revealed. When we no longer numb ourselves and avoid our pain at all costs, we can hear the cry of our soul and do the work necessary to make our souls sing again.

I’m not gonna lie, I’m pretty excited about 2019 coming to a close. It’s been quite a ride and I’m ready to get off. I love growing, but damn, this one was intense. How was it for you? I’m gearing up for some exciting adventures in 2020 and I hope you are, too. Let’s keep growing and loving and becoming all we came here to be. Love and blessings to you all.